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rusty,hi you seem to have gobs of articles,comments and antidotes scattered all over the web, its very hard for me [ a moron] to find,follow and subscribe to them! thanks ken
You know Ken, you remind me a lot of me but I’m afraid for my not so good traits. maybe you also have my good ones, there are a few around. :)
My pastor and others were always getting on me for being self depreciating, I think that’s the word they used. :) You do that. You’ve got some experience with xanax and I think effexor too.
Well you don’t have to follow it every where you know. I need to get out to other places more but that often ends in conflict so I’m mostly staying close to “home.”
I need to get two more websites going but having trouble finding the time to do it. One I’m really wanting to see thrive but I need to add a LOT more content….
you write well and have interesting articles also we have an interest in common [philippines].actually considering my past and what i’ve had to work with i’m pretty much all right with ken!,right now i’m torn between keeping/enjoying the secure life i’ve spent all my working life building or basicly just tossing that and starting anew,i’m not asking your advice ,i know this is my decision alone but i do enjoy reading your insights and maybe that will affect what ever decision i do make.thanks rusty for your time and effort,i do appreciate reading your articles.ken
I wish I knew what you meant by throwing it all away but your not asking for advice so…..
Most things you could get back, especially if you’re secure. :)
Funny how we can work all that time for something then find out maybe we were working for the wrong thing but I wonder, throw it away? Are you really?
I write well, that boggles my mind. I started to email my English professor a while back. Then I decided he might trash me for my poor writing and I didn’t. LOL I nearly flunked out of college and sometimes I think I should have because of my inadequate writing skills.
It was funny though, I was always quite good at putting emotion into writing, or so I’ve been told. Ii don’t think I’m really doing that right now. Its a different type of writing but maybe it is still there.
Just hard for me to think of myself as a good writer. I nearly got fired too because of my poor spelling. That poor spelling is why I got into computers. I can be very detailed. Yet in some situations, like reading, especially what I wrote, I have a really hard time with details.
Sometimes its like I have the block, I just can’t read it. When someone yells at me or is critical in an unproductive way, I can’t even read it. Sometimes I feel as if I’ve been overwhelmed with so much crud in my life, I just wont take it any more I don’t know if I’m different from others. Maybe I just more aware of it than I use to be or maybe I’m not different and I’m just more aware of blocking. Hard to know what others do.
Same way with instructions now, I just have a really hard time reading them. I use to pour myself into such things.
But when it comes to writing, I’m very apt to use the wrong form of a word. Like poor instead of pour. I almost did it above. I know the difference but I just don’t see what I wrote. Now sometimes, the next day I can see it but it seems once I make a mistake in writing, its next to impossible for me to see it.
I wonder, has my writing improved? Did all the beatings I took in college and at work force me to start paying attention? I know I’ve forgotten nearly all the grammar rules. I’m having a heck of a time with tense. I think, I’ve gotten worse . So, have I improved or has my audience changed? I’m not writing for English professors now or even other college students.
But my last boss even told me I write well and I was floored. I hear it a lot but I have a hard time excepting that I write well. I was always good at putting thoughts on paper. My ability to get my idea across was good. My technical abilities though, man…. Even back then I wondered, if I’m getting the point across, why does the rest matter?
college! geez i have a 7th grade education,i was living on the mean steets of detroit at 14 and have had at least one full time job since 16,i am petrified at even the thought of being destitute again,i’ve always survived by sheer will and a strong back now at 64 yrs old my old body is waning quickly.the philippines reminds me of a day long gone here in the u.s,maybe thats its big attraction for me, i would just like to use the rest of my life [not sitting in an easy chair watching mindless programs on t.v.] meeting/observing interesting people and places.on some days i’m sure i’m making a grave mistake and at the same time deep down i know exactly where and how i want to finish my days
Sounds like I the Philippines would be right. Most people will tell you to come for a visit first.
I too held a full time job since 16. At least one. During college I worked up to three jobs, 60 to 80 hours a week. I totally destroyed my health going through school. Got my girlfriend pregnant at 19 or 20, owned a home at 21 while going to college.
I grew up on the wrong side of the tracks in south Jackson, Ms. College got me a great job but lupus slowed me down by 30 at 50, I’m probably more like 80 but I gonna keep swinging.
Just cause I went to college don’t mean I had it easy. :) Not even my will power is as strong as it once was and that really makes me mad. :) I broke a lot of rules and have never really stopped. Especially if I think the rule stinks. Depends on the situation though, I can be an excellent rule follower if its a volunteer kind of thing. At work, I made the mistake of following the rules but telling them what I thought about it. LOL I just can’t seem to stop doing that. I know I should just shut up and agree but I can’t do it. :)
Most people see me as a rebel, perhaps it is true. My going to the most academically challenging school in Ms and probably the south broke all the rules. I kicked butt to pull that off. :) I did it with almost no help.
i’ve been to the rp twice for a total of about 4 months, i like it there quite well even though [like you i suspect] there are some things that irk me to death,mostly the positive far out weigh the negitives.rusty i didn’t mention the college thing as any kind of disparage,hell i’ve known one or two college types who were almost tolerable[grin],maybe i’ll just build a nipa hut on some squatter’s area and finish my days drinking tanduay and smoking 35 peso cigarettes and reflect on some great philosophy,like is the bottle half full or damm near empty.ken
The only thing that bothers me about the Philippines is when someone slams foreigners or some Filipina thinks I’m trying to buy her. Hypocrisy is my pet peeve and there is plenty of here, its a bit worse than the US but there’s a lot of it there too..
Sorry I over looked your comment up until just now.
god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change; courage to change the things i can; and wisdom to know the difference,rusty you and i know that there’s a lot of good Americans who visit/live in the philippines but there’s also lots who only seek to exploit,we can’t change other peoples opinions,we just have to keep on keeping on.ken
Maybe its the control freak in me but I’ve never bought into that prayer and I am glad I don’t.
Even religious people have shared it with me, a pastor I respect much.
I said to him, “all things are possible through Him.” So I change it a bit, I know I can’t change much, my night in shining armour days are done. I am not that person or at least I try hard not to be that person. I am me, I accept what’s around me. I do ask, but rarely get, that others accept me without judging. You know, that’s really all i want from people.
As for that prayer, I know I can’t change much of anything but God can so I ask for the wisdom to bring about that change and accept that I rarely get it. Miracles happen but they are rare. Most of the time God prefers we make our own choices and lets those choices fall where they may, not that He doesn’t try to guide us. Most of us, really suck at listening. I know I do and I try. :) Just too much me gets in the way.. True for others, i don’t think most are aware of that, I think most go through life lying to themselves about how pure and good their motives are without every really look deep enough to see just how selfish we can be and how much of that dominates our thoughts.
There I go again, you got me started dude. LOL
judging others is as inherent to humans as thinking [i think] perhaps its the same thing,we all do it,as soon as we receive a tiny bit of information about someone we automatically start forming judgments,how they look,how they act even what they say triggers this,is this wrong, probably but right or wrong, it what we do, yes humans are bad listeners,we would much rather form our judgments based on other criteria,is this wrong,probably but its what we do,interestingly we tend to judge ourselves more harshly than others do [ i think] thats why theres so much prescribed lithium,thorazine,prozac,xanax,effexor etc.i drink my rhum in liters and my god in small doses,is this wrong probably but its what i do
There are many ways judge. That is true. If a decision is a judgement, then I do that.
However, I think the term usually means something else.
I rarely think a person is good or bad. Instead, I think we are all just trying to get through life as best we can.
See my last comment to Gunny, we are talking pretty much about the same thing. Under, I wouldn’t change a thing.
yeah i read it! as a marine vet,i don’t have anything to say about that,at least nothing i want to say.i think your exactly right about people in general,i think somehow,someway we all justify our actions,or at least the ones not on the brain altering drugs,its when our minds won’t allow justification ,theres the rub huh
I sure hope that’s an understanding marine vet, my guess is that it is.
Patton may have said it best, well if he actually said it, War is Hell.
He appears to be special ops too making his job even more deadly.
It would be so cool to be a SEAL but the having to deal with things like that. Nothing for me to say but thank you so I don’t have too.
absolutely i support all our current and former combat solders!!! many are placed in a dammed if you do and god-dammed if you don’t situations[ ie lieutenant william cally] monster or ordinary man under extreme conditions,even he doesn’t know,btw the navy seals-army rangers/green berets and MARINE FOREST RECON are all part of special ops
I knew a pretty messed up fellow that was a ranger, hand to hand combat in Bosnia, pretty brutal too, last contact I had with him he hated me. :( Line forms n the rear…
Easy to understood why he was messed up. I was supporter but he couldn’t see that.
Anyway, he always insisted they were not Special Ops and others do too. Not that it really matters. I think he would say he supported special ops. Special or not, the blood is still red and the “shell shocked” brain is still grey. I know its not the shells its more about the trauma they see or sometimes inflict.
Yeah, i’ve never been there but I’m educated enough to know the damned if you do and damned if you don’t. It becomes harder for clandestine special ops. What do they do if someone spots them. I’m glad its not a call I’ll ever have to make. probably one of their worst nightmares. Especially, if it is a mother and daughter.
Or you’re a check point and they don’t stop and you just watched your buddy get blown to bits the week before and now they are headed straight for your “brother” no you have no choice in a situation like that. I would fire. Hopefully I would be within the rules of engagement when I did it. I’d like to think I would but we don’t’ kknow what we are made of until that kind of things happened.
When I was younger I was in a situation where I should have shot someone and I didn’t. I’m a bit more jaded now, I don’t think that person would be wise to put themselves in that position now.
clint eastwood “its a hellof a thing killing a man” much worse if you have no personal reason to do so,much much much worse if its defenseless innocent kids,maybe sometime if i’m drunk enough we will continue this topic,hmmm but i doubt it
collateral damage, that was the word I was trying to think of.
You and gunny have brought new meaning to it.
its a subject best left alone,for me anyway
Ken, when I asked you if you had seen my comments to Gunny, I didn’t bring it because of this situation. I brought it up because it was the same subject you and I were talking about. You brought this up. :)
i know,do you know when you get a tooth pulled and you know you shouldn’t put your tongue in the resulting hole but somehow you can’t not,pretty much the same or you shouldn’t think too much,ofcoarse your going too,now how about those filipina’s?
i can spot a combat vet from a great distance but i’ve never talked to one directly and interestingly enough i sense the same response form them