Wasted Stress
Most people think stress is harmful to us. I think its the number one killer and related to many illnesses. I watched my nearly seven foot tall uncle wither away and die after his son of about nine years old passed away in his arms. He carried a lot of guilt over the tragedy. He started having all kinds of medical problems. Gout, his 
drinking went completely out of control, pneumonia, and finally breast cancer. Yes, men can get breast cancer. Drinking was a problem before his loss but that got worse and a man that had rarely been sick was now always sick.
I guess if one is going to be stressed, they should first be sure of their facts. I got confused yesterday, I had been anticipating a check from Google before my required trip out of the country. Philippine Bureau of Immigration requires people here on a tourist visa to leave the country every 16 months. My sixteen months are up in June. I have a ticket to go to Bangkok for late May.
Yesterday, I got confused about how Google pays and thought my money would not be coming until after I returned back from Bangkok. I was wrong though, actually I was wrong about being wrong. I had thought the money would be coming in April but yesterday I got confused. I decided I wouldn’t get the money until the end of May and this caused a bit of a panic on my part.
I was extremely tense yesterday, finally having a period where my blog sugar crashed. That may have been directly caused by the stress. I cut back on some meds recently as I had several low blood sugar spells. My fasting blood sugar is running around 170 now which is not that great but a lot of diabetics would kill for that. I have not walked much in the last week. The heat has been unbearable. I have to recommit myself to that AGAIN though and just grin and bear it. Or perhaps go at night.
Anyway, late yesterday, I realized that the money would be coming in April like I first thought. Its not a lot of money but I don’t need a lot of money. Another $100 is enough. I blew my budget and my savings last month because of the trip to Bangkok, the trip to Bantayan Island and I finally replaced my monitor. It had died in November or December of last year.
Jessie and I have been sharing her PC but now her monitor is dying. I think its humidity that is making it shut off. It use to do it only around midnight but now it is turning off every few minutes during the day. We need to replace her monitor too but that’s going to have to wait.
The point of the story is stress though. Worrying yourself over things does nothing to resolve them. We humans seem to think if we worry about it, we can control it. If it would work, it might be worth it. Controlling things is one of our worst traits as a human. Because we have so little control we set ourselves up for more stress when the attempted control does not work out the way we planned. We can’t even control our own subconscious, if you think you can, you’re fooling yourself. It’s sub-conscious that means your not aware of it. Now if we are open enough to listen to others, they might can help us see things about ourselves that we do not see. None of us escape from this, we all need some help from others in improving. Not even I can escape this and I’m dang near prefect. :)
Since most of you are not near perfect, it might be a good idea to try to reduce your worry and live longer and be happier while doing it!
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Hey Rusty – I get my AdSense payments via Western Union. It’s free to you, and means that you get your AdSense payment the same day it is issued instead of taking time for mailing and such. You might want to look into that, there must be a Western Union office in Bogo, right?
There are several WU here and I might do that sometime. This month it would help me out but most of the time I can wait the five days and send whatever I need when I send my annuity over this way.
I guess I still have time to change it, not sure. I like everything to go through my business account, easier to account for it that way. It may become the way to go.
One thing, Wu gives a horrible exchange rate usually but we’re not talking about fortune. :)
thansk for the suggestion! I had forgot about that, might change my mind. I’ll get it on the 26th. They do it quickly if you do it via direct deposit and I do. I’m lazy, I don’t want to go get it.
Hi Rusty – No worries about exchange rate! Just get it in US Dollars! I didn’t realize it was direct deposit, the way I read your article, I thought you were waiting for a check! Direct Deposit is as good as WU, I’d say!
Hmm, I better go back and read it.
No, I got confused on when my next check would come. I didn’t make itt to $100 in February, close but not quite. Those two fewer days made the differnce. I thought they would wait almost 60 days before paying me. But I re-read it and its the month following the month you make it to $100. So that will be around the 25th of this month and I’ll get paid for February and March. Hopefully, I’m not confused now. I need that money to come in before my trip to Bangkok which is before teh 25th of May.
I just got really tense over being so tight on funds. I felt like my stay here could become in jeapordy. I still have to buy ticket back out, I’ll have a lot of Fees soon after I get back and I’d like to stay in a hotel and be able to eat in Bangkok. :) Staying in an airport for two days is not my idea of fun! I will if that’s what I must do but the rooms are cheapin Bangkok.
My expenses went up $200 a month and that’s kicking my butt, no fun money unless I get my insurance check which I’ve not seen.
Do the tracking numbers for Philpost every work? Is there a trick to putting them in correctly? We can never seem to get it too work. Every time we visit, it tells us the numbers are wrong.
I don’t know if we have any money changers here and if we do, then I don’t know where they are. WU is the only place I know to go for exchange. DBP has dollar accounts but not in Bogo City.