I noticed something about myself a year or two ago.  If I hole up in my house, as I’m inclined to do, I get a little down.  I wouldn’t say depressed but close to it.  Maybe depressed.

Since coming back from Bangkok, I’ve been a bit sick and tired.  I hate that I can’t do much of anything without having what I think is the lupus fatigue set in.  I also had some chest congestion though.  Some of the blood pressure meds I take contribute to that.  No doubt these cigars are not helping.  I enjoy them so much though.  Jessie is fussing at me for smoking them too much.  I’ll probably end up quitting them but I’ll have to decide that on my own.  They can’t be good for my enlarged heart.

I’ve not been out for a walk since I got back.  I don’t think I’ve even been out of the house and its been a little over a week now.  I need to get out and take some pictures.  I also need that high powered Cannon digital SLR.  :)

I’m hoping to visit Bantayan Island this month.  So that will likely put me back in bed for another week.  I hate having this limitation but oh well, its better than not even trying to enjoy the world.

I’m fine nothings really wrong, I just need to get out.  I’ve always been a bit of a recluse but its not good for me.

Life is good, I couldn’t ask for more and I’ve learned, finally, much of how life seems depends on my outlook, my attitude.  My faith helps a great deal with that, especially now that I no longer believe that my faith will make everything wonderful.  Just not true.  God never promised that, Jesus never promised that.  I do think they promise an inner peace.  Something I’ve learned to tap into more and more.

Well, I could ask for more money but that’s not going to make life good.  Mostly it is Jessie that makes life good, even on her bad days.  She’s not been feeling well the last couple of days.  She’s a bit bored I think, she needs a new monitor.  It finally died.  Life would not be as good without her!

I’ve discovered an usual way to keep my rashes down.  If I put Neosporem (sp), or the Walgreen’s “Triple Antibiotic” version of the same thing, on the places I normally get these rashes, I don’t get them.  If I’m going to be out a lot, I simply put these cream on the back of my legs and on my stomach and I don’t get the rash.  I don’t know why.  I think its keeping the detergent in my clothes from making contact with my skin.  I’ve tried this a couple of different times now and it worked each time.  Not completely but it is reduced a great deal.

I’ve always had problems with detergents.  Arm and Hammer was the best thing I found.  Tide was the worst for me.

Itching all t he time is not pleasant.  I have to use expensive bath soap now, I tried to do without it and I’d find myself itching badly.

Anyway, the last two days, I’ve not written much because I’m feeling lazy and  I think I’m feeling lazy because I’ve actually been lazy.  So time to walk off the lazy.  I hope Jessie is up to walking tomorrow.  If not I may go alone, she’s really not feeling well.

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Tagged with: Bantayan Island • Faith • God • Lupus • Walking

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