You Might Be A Moron

I started to title this as you might be a moron if….. But that’s too harsh.   Wait, no its not.  Its an issue I see a lot and one I can usually just blow off.  I’ve not been feeling well lately so my tolerance of ignorance or possibility stupidity has been stretched a bit thin at the moment.  Maybe I’m being too harsh.  I’ve not been myself for the last week.

It doesn’t just happen to me.  I’ve seen others that like to poke fun at overweight people.  Sometimes meaning no harm but inflicting it just the same.  I see others strike back and I usually just laugh with them when it is directed at me.

The other day though, a “friend” that I had not had contact with in sometime found me on a social website.  I was happy to see him.

He started an online chat with me and said you’re looking healthy.  The pictures on my web site showed a slimmer me.  I thought it was a compliment.  Knowing I have not been healthy lately and not wishing to complain about my problems, I just let it go.

Then a few minutes later, he said something like, “looks like Jessie has been feeding you well.”  I’ve seen my friends rip into someone when they say things like this.  I didn’t, I just stopped responding to his messages.  No reason to pick a fight with him.  I decided to just send a message by silence.

I thought though, I should write about it.  maybe one person will hear me and stop doing this to their friends.  Having to go through life as a morbidly person carries a lot of stigma.  Some people try to disguise it as saying they care about their body.  Okay, cool, so do I.  People often think, “if i can do it, you can.”  They think that are just lazy.  I think you don’t have a clue what you are talking about.

Its so clear now that our weight has so much more to do with genetics than we ever realized.  There can be health issues that result in weight gain.  When it hurts to even sit, walking and running and biking are impossible.  I would so love to be able to ride a bike or go walking just for the sake of walking.  There are so many things that make it impossible for me, for most of my life.  And then there are medications that cause major weight gain.  People sometimes even then say, I took that.  Okay, you took it for 10 days at a low dose.  You started with 10mg and was off of it in ten days.  I’m not even going to say what I took because I have yet to meet a nonmedical person that understood.  Unless they took the same thing.  I don’t know anyone that took as much Predisone as I had to take.  Others do, I just never met those.

I think I have an eating disorder on top of that.  Some would not call it a disorder, others would not.  I think its just a bad habit.  I find that I tend to eat too much when I’m down or in the past, severely depressed.  Depression often leaves one feeling empty.  I had severe, disabling depression for many years.  One obvious way to help with that empty feeling is to eat too much.  I still enjoy doing that, maybe once a week.  I’m always hungry so for a little while.  Usually, I eat too much chicken but the other day, I really had fun with a pizza.  Yeah rip me apart if you like.  I’m glad I ate it, so bite me. LAUGH.  While you’re doing that, I’ll bite the pizza.

No one is more worried about my health than me.  I think I’m dying.  Yes, I know we all are.  Have you ever had one doctor give you five years.  While another said it is unlikely I’ll see 55.  That was a few years back.  I’m 51.  Walking would help.  For the last year I have been tortured with rashes.  They come in the form of poison ivy like blisters.  They get much worse when I get hot.  Wonder how much walking you’d do if you broke out into blisters every time you set foot beyond the comfort of air conditioning.  Where the itching is constant for a year.  Yeah I know, I can hear the thought “you are just lazy.”

None of that really is the point of this article.  The point is stop hurting your friends by constantly reminding they are fat.  I so want to be slim and good looking again.  People reject fat people, usually without realizing it but sometimes they do.  Hey, I understand, I think my body is gross.  I wont even look in the mirror if I am unclothed.  I avoid it at least.

You know, you might have wart on your nose.  Maybe one of your eyes is a little lower than the other.  I would never dream of pointing it out when talking to a friend or stranger.  That would be considered rude.  However, its quite okay to make poke fun at overweight people , or so our culture indicates.  Geesh though, maybe we should start making a point of your big nose.

Do you know how obvious it is that what you’re really doing is finding a way too feel better about yourself.  Don’t you realize it shows how you need to put someone else down so you will be better than us?  You should be thinking of our feelings. If you’re such a psychopath that you have no feelings for others, at least realize you’re really showing how weak you are?

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